and it's January again
and the cold set in months ago
and you talk with people who like you
and you're getting back into the swing of things
and you say things you wish you could mean but don't
and you see art that makes you feel hollowed out
and you make art that feels hollow
and it can't be getting bad again
and you have to be doing better because you said you were doing better
and you can't stop thinking about it