Recently moved out to uni! everything has been going pretty well in that regard at least but i've been feeling kind of demotivated towards my art and i'm struggling to maintain enthusiasm for a project i'm working on. i mean cest la vie i guess but it's a little annoying personally. local grocer here does sell the best rice cookies on earth so is there anything to complain about really.
As much as i personally feel that i do better creatively with traditional media, digital art is pretty damn nice because it never takes up physical space. every potter i know even just hobbyists are desperate to get rid of the 8000 bowls and cups they've got lying around, and i certainly have shelves of shit i can't sell and don't really want to throw away. its nice that the constraint for digital work is just how many flash drives i can buy and not, like, if i can afford a uhaul truck and a storage unit.
I've been kind of obsessed lately with the aura of disconnect between like ARG style main characters and the people around them. it's not present in every work like that and is present in other stuff but i see it most often there. maybe that's just my bias in perspective but eh. a lot of the 'cameramen' i guess for lack of a better word feel (to me) as though they're standing on the other side of a layer of plastic from everyone else in the world. part of it could be awkward acting etc but i do see it enough that i want to pin it to something specific instead.
my current theory is that the reason a lot of these characters feel like they're interacting through like 40 feet of cotton is because they're acting in a way that actually IS disconnected from the world around them - by necessity the POV/main acting force of a story like that has to be the access point of the audience, and act in a way that a) moves the narrative forward and b) makes sense to the audience. and yeah of course the audience isn't going to be connected to the general population of this world because it isn't real. on a basic level with these works there's the fact that they aren't really living worlds so much as they are puzzle boxes for the audience to solve. of course theyre still worlds with worldbuilding etc and often quite thought out, but ultimately the bitch with the camera is the one who's seeing slenderman or whatever, and not going to costco for cheese balls. so the character has all this shit happening to them that probably isn't widely known, and has the force of the audience behind them that wants an interesting story or a new puzzle to chew on or a fun new lore dump to theorize about. at the end of it their thought process(that being the fictional thought process of the character, not the creator's)is kind of polluted by all of these factors, so they end up wandering around creeping on random people's houses, or asking strangers deeply strange questions unprompted.
there's probably more reasonable causes like general variance in writing but i do think it's fun to think about. it certainly heightens the sense of isolation even around crowds of people.
i've got near on 4000 photos from the past few months that i need to process and it doesn't actually take too long per photo but every time i think of sitting down to do it i go ehhhhh and then go waste my time on other things. ah well
this background is one of em though ain't it nice
god well sometimes time gets you right in the face and doesn't ease up. my bad. been trying to start actually enjoying art directly since i have a bad habit of just going through proxies or godawful "explained" channels, which isn't fair to the artist. finally finished marble hornets only 15yrs late... ":) kind of fascinated by how goofy the slenderman construct is
also been listening to nothing but Susumu Hirasawa's the man climbing the hologram album for like a week. its really good
oops! i've been trying to keep myself off the internet more and ive been failing but i DID forget to make posts or updates here for months. yay! i want to really for real this time make a dedicated blog page.
trail update. i think its my favourite part of the site so far... focusing on other things for a while.
big page update! now ill be getting around to a pinned for my tumblr since now ive been informed how i can do it (thank you!) but ive been uh. lazy... and working on other things lol
i think my works page is somewhere i'm happy with, so next i'll start making new stuff to add to it and making a real recommendations page. im really suprised how little space all this stuff actually takes up.
actually setting up some pages and organization. i've mostly been focused on bigger unrelated projects but i'm getting nowhere so. site update work instead.
site up and mostly functional :] there's only one secret in on the trail but i'll work on that. art stuff isn't set up yet either but we'll get there
I want a separate 'talk' page later but for now it can go here. this format goes poorly with long strings of text